On
Irrfan Khan
‘s
death anniversary
, his wife
Sutapa Sikdar
penned a heartfelt note on living without her husband. She recalled their long journey together and expressed a mix of emotions guilt, sadness, and a deep sense of loss tempered by cherished memories spanning 36 years.
In her long
Facebook note
, she wrote, “It’s 4 years three days since
Irrfan
left me.
Four years? A feeling of guilt sweeps through my body. 4 years we have LIVED without him added with sadness, fear, hopelessness and severe helplessness. And then I thought but still I lived with him more. I knew him since 1984 so that makes it 36 years of knowing him more and definitely till I die I would have spent more time with him then without him. And then I thought if he was with me physically in 2024 what would have been our conversation like? Because that’s the most I miss.”
Sutapa then imagined a conversation with Irrfan and what their interaction would have been like if he were physically present. She envisioned him returning home from a shoot, engrossed in reading and petting their cat. Their conversation revolved around his admiration for
Diljit Dosanjh
‘s performance in Chamkila and working in Malayalam cinema with
Fahadh Faasil
.
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She wrote, “He would be coming home mostly in 2024 straight from the shoot and would be petting our cat and reading.
Me :: you have to see chamkila
He would not have looked up immediately( never did while he was reading)
Me : he is sooo good.. I loved his performance.
He : Accha? Who?
Me : Arre yaar Diljit Dosaanj .. he is so not structured and all heart.. he makes me feel.:
He ( now looking at me) Accha .. you think he is that good !!
Me yes!!! You and he should work together it will be magic you should play a Sardar again after quissa and two brother kind of story ..
He : hummm (his phone rings ) hey dinu (Dinesh Vijayan) yaar yeh sutapa Bol rahi hai Diljit dosanj bahut Accha hai ..:
Me Accha nehi bahut Accha ..
He. Haan yaar let’s do something .. let’s do something on punjabi sufi poets.. main dekhta hoon Aaj chamkila OR
He would be listening on his head phone as he enters .. Arre yaar sutup kya likha hai irshaad ne ..( he loved Irshad kamil) ufff khatarnaak.. suna hai tumne vida karo .. what a song .. He and his manager manpreet are sitting and he is saying get me a Malayali film. I want to work with this director where Fahadh Faasil is there. Yaar I am forgetting the name I am telling you if Bollywood doesn’t mend its way etc etc .. I will do a Malayali film! This is what mostly we will be talking in 2024.#irrfankhan#vidakaro#irshadkamil#fahadfazil#dilljitdosanjh.”
Meanwhile, Irrfan’s son
Babil Khan
honoured his father’s legacy by donating Rs 50,000 to tackle water scarcity in a Maharashtra village. He also shared an emotional note which reads, “You taught me to be a warrior, but engage with love and kindness. You taught me of hope and you taught me to fight for the people. You do not have fans, you have a family, and I promise you baba I will fight for our people and our family till you call upon me. I will not give up. I love you so much.”
Irrfan Khan’s passing on April 29, 2020, following his prolonged battle with neuroendocrine cancer, marked the end of an era in Bollywood. Filmmaker Homi Adajania’s
Angrezi Medium
stands as Irrfan’s final film.
